Semester trucking along quite nicely and I have been trying to really incorporate all the things I have learned so far and really focus on the things that I need to get better at.
Even today, this morning, one of the biggest feeling that I have is that I am running out of time. Whether if someone comes up with the same idea that I have been cultivating for these last 2 years, or I won’t have enough time to complete all the things I have committed myself for this semester.
Personally, for this semester I am beginning work as a Software Developer focusing on AI and ML after finishing early an internship that I got over the break between semester. It is strange to reach the place you have been aiming for and for you to finally arrive and see that there is a whole new thing to do and the new world/landscape to see. All the thing you have been doing and seeing will change and it is this transition is so surreal with no words for expression, at least for me.
I think the best way to describe this feeling is beginning with your earliest memory of education. You begin young while simultaneously looking up at the people older than you while growing and before you know it you finish primary, begin young again at secondary and then become year 13/ 18 years old being thrust into the ‘real world’. My path took me to university and you begin young wondering if you will ever graduate and then you are in your final semester wondering what life will look like working.
There is this cycle of young and then before you know it you’re old. I guess right now I am preparing to be young again and hopefully become someone worth looking up to.
This semester I really want to embrace what it means to be a student learner for life. As a creative technologist, I am still learning to learn every day and trying to remember the words of the late great innovator and futurist that is Steve Jobs,
Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish
If I were to die today, would I be doing the best I can?
I really think these two statements from his Harvard Commencement speech is really something to embrace and it is something that I have latched on to and been trying to apply these ideas with myself.
I never have experienced or remember experiencing growing pains but being 24 today I feel it now. To be better about myself there are things that I would personally call sacrifices. It is playing games. I need to be better about myself and really improve the amount of time I spend playing. Like any good addiction, it is not something easy for me to give up making me completely jealous of people who never really played games and there are some who I have come to know. I have spoken with someone who spent their youth with CoD who one day cold stopped playing after recognising all the sources of his distraction and proceeded to delete Netflix as well after realising that it also contributed to his distraction. One thing he said that saying I will play intermittently, did not work making me wonder if I need to the same thing to really control my destiny.
I don’t know why I became obsessed with time and its effects on me and my life but it became important recently in my decision making the most of things and making sure that I can do all I can.
Back to school.